July 29, 2021 Alzheimer’s ALERT: If you don’t want to read about my fatal diagnosis don’t read this post. I am fairly certain that most people with memory loss, and perhaps even those who don’t, fear the diagnosis of Alzheimer’s. Which I did—until it was real. I was told of my new diagnosis of Alzheimer’s…
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Will I know what I don’t know?
Thursday, June 17 , 2021 Dementia is a terrible disease—truly terrible at least in the early stages, when one realizes what they don’t remember. I know this sounds strange, but it feels even more strange. I have bits and pieces of memories, but few details. Adding to the frustration, I not only know that I…
Musing about dementia
Thursday, June 10, 2021 Writing after a hiatus is more difficult with each post. This morning (almost noon) my mind is once again in a muddle. It feels like disconnected pieces are floating around in my head—not landing, but swirling as though they are trying to find where they belong. Obviously, my dementia is increasing—or…
Reflections
May 25, 2021 A very disturbing morning. Confused, sad, tearful, shaky; did I say sad? Yes, sad. I met Steven in the kitchen, getting coffee and then he went off to a phone meeting in his room. Now I’m sitting with coffee and tears. Bad dreams last night; fear and anxiety this morning. Things are…
Spring mood, part II: Feeling sorry for myself
Part I can be found here. This post is the “downer” counter-part to last week’s post about my thoughts on a glorious spring day. Together, they help create a balanced picture of what my moods have been like lately. This post might be particularly suited for caregivers, who want to read one description of what…
Spring mood, part I: Thoughts on a glorious spring day
After I wrote this post, I questioned whether it sounded too bubbly, flowery and positive. I said so when I sent it to my editor for feedback. A few days later I sent another post, written in an entirely different tone. She pointed out that maybe these two posts were created to hold hands with…